Cole…from Keely and Du
Modern – Men
By Jane Martin (Smith & Kraus: pp.295-296)[End of scene 16. NOTE: This speech has been edited to keep it under 3 minutes]
COLE: Take me back. Forgive me. I loved you in a bad way, a terrible way, and I sinned against your flesh and spirit. God forgive me. I’m an alcoholic but I don’t drink now. I don’t know…I was…lived like…didn’t know right from wrong, but I’m with Jesus now. I accept Him as my Lord and He leads me in His path. I will stay on the path. I will stay on the path. We were married, Keely, you are carrying my baby, let’s start from there. I put you on a pedestal, Keely, I do, I wouldn’t say it, and I am in the mud, I’m drowning and I ask you to lift me up and then we minister to this child. Jeez, Keely, our child. You know in my house, in my father’s house, Jeez what were those kids, they were nothin, they were disposable. In your house, right, you know what a time you had. You know. But it can be different for him. I’m different, look in my eyes, you know that. Hey, my temper, you know, I don’t do that, it’s over…(Indicating Walter) Ask him is it over. I think about you every minute, every day. I want to dedicate my life to you because it’s owed, it’s owed to you. You got my baby. I hurt you so bad you would kill a baby. That’s not you, who would describe you, you would do that? Jeez Keely, don’t kill the baby. I brought a book we could look up names, we could do that tonight. You pick the name, I would be proud. I’m going to wait on you. You’re the boss. They got me a job. I’m employed. Five o’clock, I’m coming home. Boom. No arguments. I help with the house, we can be partners. I’m back from the dead. I don’t say you should believe me but because the baby you should test me out. You gotta take my hand here, we could start from there, I’m asking you. (He hand extended, he waits, a long time) Come on, Keely. I love you. I can’t make love to another woman, you know what I mean. (His hand is still out) You loved me and I destroyed that out of the bottle. But Jeez, look at me, took off thirty pounds, I don’t care what they tell me at AA, I’m never taking another drink. I’m never. I wanted to suffer what you suffered so I let them whip me, I wanted to take off the flesh, I wanted more pain, I wanted your pain. I wanted to be even with you so I could put out my hand and we could be one to one. Come on, take my hand. Come on, Keely. Come on Keely. (He touches her hand. She doesn’t withdraw it) Oh. my God! Oh, my God, there is stuff leaving me. Okay, Keely, I thought about a pledge, what I could make to you, if I could touch you. No harm. No harm is what I thought of. Look, I want to turn your hand over, make it palm up, okay? This is make or break, Keely. Right now. Right now. Close your hand, take my hand. You know what I mean? One gesture, you could save me. We could raise a child. With one gesture we could do that. Come on Keely. Come on, Keely. (In an incredibly quick move, Keely brings Cole’s hand to her mouth and sinks her teeth into it) Ahhhhhhhhhh……Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. (He puts his other hand on her head and pulls himself free) Ahhh. God love and forgive you!